It is Friday night and I am staring at the light from my computer screen. The kids are in bed and Matthew is still at his game. We HAVE to go see his band play next week. Just because we are teachers and want to fall asleep on the couch at 7:00 Friday nights is no excuse for missing our son. He is a junior this year. Only one more year and he will be just about to go to college.
School is pretty tough for him right now. He has so many things on his plate. We want him to be involved in things, but he almost has too much. There doesn't seem to be anything to cut out, though. It is all good. Church, leading worship for the youth, FCA at school, band, work at Oby's, not to mention homework that is supposedly the most important, right. I mean outside of his quite time, etc. He really wants to be working on his own music with his friends. I wish he had more time to just be young. We will have to see if he can find a balance.
He is a little stressed out. I think we are going to be OK, though. Sometimes I feel like the worst parent. Especially when I loose my temper with him. This morning taking him to school early for FCA was great, though. I think he knows that we will be there for him and that we love him.
Having kids is so wild. I just pray that God will take over, because I am so human. They are precious gifts from Him and I want to do everything so right. I want them all to love God and to want to never walk away from Him. This world is so stinking nasty, though. I get angry when I know what is out there. I try to protect my kids and wonder if I am protecting them too much. God is in control, though. I know this and count on it every day. I can't believe that He puts up with me.
Matt is playing some beautiful music. He got several volumes of music from the Texas list (it's a choir thing) and he and I have been playing through it. There is so much incredible music out there. This is the part of my job that I love. I love that my high school kids really appreciate good music. Even the ones that aren't fast and hip-hop sounding.
Today was a good day in a stressful week. Last week with my 6th graders was horrible. I felt like the worst teacher. Well...I did put two classes together because I had to go to my elementary school for Grandparent's Day. So there were 5o instead of about 25 6th graders at one time. I think that may have had something to do with it. But...today was really good with them. We did the rhythm band...only about 10 times faster than the CD for younger kids. They really liked it.
Tomorrow the kids all have birthday parties to go to and our friend gave us Ole Miss tickets for tomorrow night. We are kind of trying to figure out who is going to go. Matt and I always opt for the less stressful of everything. Maybe because we are lazy or pretty worn out from school.
Anyway, we'll see. I have to finish the masks for the kids' drama for Sunday night. They are doing the "King of Hearts". It is very moving. I hope they will get the message for themselves while they are sharing it. Our drama group is young. Matthew and our pastor's son are the oldest ones there.
Matt had one of his first potential recording jobs referred to him by his fellow teacher friend. When the family got there they needed an accompaniment without back-ground vocals. When they looked a little closer at what they had Matt put the CD on track 5 and there was an acc. without vocals. :) Oh well. He told them that it did get him to get our kids to clean up on a Friday afternoon because they were coming. :)
Can't wait for our family to all get together again. Mamaw went to take care of Grandpa this weekend. Please pray for him. He had an allergic reaction to something and isn't doing well. We used to see family just about every weekend. Mamaw's ritual was ordering pizza for the kids from Domino's. I do miss those times. Now we just have to try a little harder to get together. I really feel like God brought us here so Matthew could grow in his youth group and graduate and that maybe when he does graduate that we will move again. The kids would love to move back to Jackson.
God knows what is going to happen. It is our job to trust Him and walk with Him. Have an awesome weekend!
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