Not much to say

I am not sure why I haven't had the desire to blog lately. I think I feel like I am saying the same things over and over again. School, family, etc.

I have been in kind of a thinking mode lately. Thinking about my job, life, the stimulus package, our world, our new administration, my students stealing from me, who I am in Christ. I guess I am just taking things in and rolling them over and over.

I have made one discover. Exercise makes me feel really good. I knew that, but it takes me being really disciplined to see the fruits of it. I love exercising, but I have to make myself do it.

I realized that it stinks when you try so hard to connect with your students and to build them up and they steal from you. I have been tested with loving my enemy and can I really pray for those who persecute me. I talk big about my spirituality, but can I back it up with an inner peace? This has been in the front of my mind.

I am praying about the upcoming revival where Matt will be leading worship. It is wild to pray about God showing up and wondering what He will do. There are many friends of mine who are in missions in places that I can't even imagine. I think about what God is going to do there. He already is doing so much. It is tough learning about the evil that surrounds our cities and towns. It is much easier to go through life with a "me" mindset. It reminds me of a (I thought strange at the time) guy who told me not to be a Christian because I was cute and had good hair. I didn't really get that then, when I was 19, but I think at 37 I finally get what he was saying.

Don't stay in your comfort zone. Don't try to keep your Christianity wrapped up in a neat package. I thought he was so weird, but there is some definite truth to what he said.

I guess I am boring whomever reads this with my deep thought mood. I am sure you can click on another page or turn off the internet altogether if you want.

I am asking God where He wants to take me. What sacrifice and discomfort do I need to experience? Will I love my student who stole from me when I turned my back?

God is so good. He is so worthy of our praise. He is in control everyday and of everything. I need to believe that prayer works and that His word does not return void.

Take care,